There are times when finding our voice requires that we look into some unfamiliar places; places that have never been explored before. This is the part that appears terrifying and could stop us from deciding to continue with our personal journey. Looking into those places that we would rather leave untouched and closed, however, is a vital part of the voyage to finding our voice. Those unexplored places hold keys that can unlock our voice and usher us into the next dimension of the freedom and courage needed to speak out.
This process looks different for everyone, because no two people have the exact same journey. A part of voyaging into that unfamiliar place for my own personal journey was searching for my biological Mother and family. I had been left in the hospital the day I was born and adopted out of the system at the age of two. This part of the journey took me into places (within) that had not previously been explored. Being adopted meant that I had not known my roots or history and could not truly understand myself or my voice in entirety. I grew up with a void of sorts that left me feeling incomplete. This was also a large part of the reason that I could not seem to locate my own personal voice. How could I have the courage to speak out in truth when I felt that I possessed a partial part of myself and history? The part that is the foundation and beginning of my story. The part that is most vital to my voice even existing. Do not misunderstand me, I am grateful for being adopted and cared for, however, I still sought to fully know and understand my history. If going into the past unlocks keys to finding our voice, I had to go back to my very first day on the earth; the day that I was abandoned by my birth Mother. This step required prayer, patience, and perseverance. I was truly about to embark on the journey of my lifetime, in more ways than one…
KimberlyLCarter 